I reached the end of my rope yesterday. But, God always has a way out. I may be signing onto a MAJOR record label. Who knows what is real nowadays with the Internet, but I am riding this out with caution. I have my whole council around me. And, I have an amazing Church family. I don't want to go into all the details of what rock bottom means, but everything is fine. I think the bottom was just me starting to make the same decision I did in my RIT days when I decided I was going to pursue music. The past 3 days I have been turning more toward the dark side of things. Then, God steps in. He loves us, and I am glad I have something very special with Him.

I know everything is going to be fine, and I know I will meet my goals soon, especially the goals I had before I was divorced. There is a young 16 year old gentleman who really needs some blessings from me. I was trying so hard to make it as a Software Engineer. I tried sooo hard. I thought it was all I knew how to do or all I could do. That is just a bunch of garbage. Sooo backwards that everyone was encouraging me to focus on that, the thing that was bringing so much failure and strife. I mean people are telling me now, even leadership at my church, that I can't make it as a musician. What do they have to say about almost 5000 subscribers to my YouTube channel in such a short time and growing...with NO PROMOTIONS anymore. I am not going to listen to all the lies and noise anymore.

As they say....but, God.